One month down...

Well tomorrow will officially be my first full month on WW. I must say I am very pleased. I don't feel like my clothes fit much differently (well maybe my scrub pants are a little looser on my softball player thighs as D refers to them...even though I was a ballerina and not a softball player), but the scale certainly does show...

I so love seeing the scale change. No way in he!! am I going to post my weight at any time though. For as short as I am, I always sound obese by most standards, even according to my doctor. I hate that about being short and being muscular. The scale never shows you are made of muscle. Not to say I don't have some chunk, because Lord knows I do.

I am a total freak and weigh myself almost daily. I know you shouldn't so you can see a real change, but I can't help it. When I have a really good day, I just have to see it! I sometimes even go home at the end of the day and jump on the scale! Which is a big no-no since you usually weigh more at the end of the day...too bad! As of this morning I am down almost 8 pounds in a month. I am pretty proud of myself. I have always struggled with my weight, other than a few year stint in high school of not eating. I am a big fan of food...especially down home southern cooking and baking. I just can't get enough. But all-be-damned...I can actually control myself on this "diet".

I hate saying I am on a diet because I feel like it is such a negative word. Diets never work for me because I don't ever feel enough pressure to do them right. Maybe this is the point in my life where I realize, I need to grow up and take better care of my body. D and I are both trying to watch what we eat, and he has even lost almost 10 lbs as well.

Every week he asks what my weight is and I gladly tell him because I know it is coming down. D knew me at my skinniest (105 lbs when I graduated) and he knows me now, which is close to my heaviest. He says how good I am doing and it means so much to hear that he is behind me 110% on this. The other night I made some baked bbq chicken and some Velveeta shells and cheese. I knew the mac would be high in points and lord have mercy! 8 or 9 points per 1 serving...that's 1 cup! After I told him how many points it was, he said, "Well, you can't eat that any more...I guess we shouldn't buy that one." He is so "into" knowing how many points I have had for the day, how many I have left...he even reminds me not to drink my points (ie. Dr. Pepper, my secret lover....).

So I am almost halfway to my goal weight. I would like to lose a total of 20 to 25. If I lost 25, it would put me looking thin but being nowhere near as skinny as I was in HS. Which is good because I am just too wide hip/shouldered to be that thin...I look like a bobble head doll!

So here is to being, let's say 1/3 the way done!! Yea to me!